small glimpses of me

small glimpses of me
reason to believe.

Sunday, August 7, 2011

John Wayne is turning 4....

My best friend, spirited little man,tender hearted special boy.....with big blue eyes they have the same expression as when we met for the first time. Your little hand in mine is one of my favorite things in the world. When you hug and kiss me I feel so special. How could I be so lucky as to have been given you as a gift in my life. Everyday when you wake up and I say, "I am so happy to see you" I mean it.  What a great big brother you have become so caring for Mary and Dylan makes me so proud -you don't know life with out them and I hope you never do! I see how important they are to you, and that makes me feel so happy  the 3 of u have each other. Your friendly nature brightens peoples day,  complete strangers smile when you talk to them  sharing  your deep thoughts about farm animals, tractors, rhinos -whatever is on your mind -makes a angry person forget their troubles.  What a gift your nature is, and I will do my best to nurture you as long as I can. Some what brave, and independent-you keep trying even when you want to give up and I say, "You can do it, don't give up John Wayne" and when you succeed and I see your face light up with pride- it is a pay off for not just giving in and doing it for you. When I see you try to help your dad with work, or help me fold towels it gives me great joy because I know you genuinely want to help us- it is a built in quality that is so important for the man you will become one day. You're concerned with others -willing to apologize when it is or isn't your fault.  Caring for others when they're hurting, it is of great concern to you when tears are flowing- you want to help make it better. These qualities make a good friend. So even the times when you're wound up, running around, being stubborn, pushing, screaming, slamming doors, taking toys away,crying, talking non stop- telling me your every thought- I love you with all my heart and I am so happy I am your mom.